I watched the balloon in the air

I admired it how free it was up there

things don't always go the way you plan

you have to keep trying and fighting but I am unsure if I can

lost and so confused in this mixed-up life of mine

 it gets harder and harder to say things are just fine

the devil has a hold, and it won't let go

struggling to free myself will I make it, I just don't know

dreams get shattered hope is lost

those things I try not to remember at any cost

I feel so empty deep inside

and losing more than just my mind

is there any use in fighting going an extra mile

or the pleasure of holding a little smile

you push on and wish for a better tomorrow

close your eyes and pray for a little less sorrow.